the Human Trinity Muse

I met her as a blossom on a stem
Before she ever breathed
and in that dream...
The mind remembers from a deeper sleep
Eye learned from eye,
cold lip from sensual lip.
My dream divided on a point of fire;
Light hardened on water where we were;
A bird sang low; the moonlight sifted in;
The water rippled, and she rippled on.

She came toward me in the flowing air,
A shape of change, encircled by its fire.
I watched her there,
between me and the moon;
The bushes and the stones
danced on and on;
I touched her shadow when the light delayed;
I turned my face away, yet she stayed.
A bird sang from the center of a tree;
She loved the wind because the wind loved me

~Theodore Roethke

I cannot believe that the
inscrutable universe
turns on an axis of suffering;
surely the strange beauty of the world
must somewhere rest on pure joy

~ Louise Bogan

There are two ways of spreading light:
to be the candle...
or the mirror that reflects it

~Edith Wharton

May I never miss a sunset
or a rainbow
because I am looking down

~ Sara June Parker

There seems to be a breed of new age/'spiritual' people that embrace a way of being that seems to ignore the need for self-reliance and the ability to hold a 'Big Picture' view of relating to humanity when it comes to money/finances

Why this is up for me is...
my roommate and I invited someone into our home (who seemed to have fallen on hard times) that could 'parrot' spiritual concepts (but it turned out the actual living of them was not a daily activity). Anyway, there was an exchange arranged for the rent and actual payment required for utilities. End result...,
after six weeks - no money and minimal exchange. Apparently we were her personal agent of the Divine to meet her want/need (in this case)
Our request for her to fulfill her commitment was met with accusations, insults and anger. We share space no longer.

I don't believe the Divine requires me to be the provider for someone's wants/needs based on their whim or a desire to be rescued from their own doings. The process of someone just simply 'taking' is called stealing - not manifesting.

I'm ok with being a tool of the Divine (it's what I try to do... and will continue to do, regardless of some 'negative' experiences). How it has worked for me in the past is usually someone is put in my path plus the 'desire to help' at the very same time. When someone tries to tell me that the Divine whats me to do something (anything), red flags go up. The Divine tends to give me a 'heads up' first.
Historically speaking, it usually doesn't usually work out so well for folks when there is a middleman between the Divine and the seeker.

I believe the healthy approach to 'conscious selfishness' really is one of self-preservation, self-growth and... in doing so, being open to how one can one provide for others in the midst of that very pursuit - interdependancy.
I believe its unhealthy to have the mindset of I gotta 'get mine'...
(irregardless of consequence for one's self and others)
It's pretty hard to 'be of service' with this attitude, and, fully experience what the Divine can do in your life.

~kenji


*Definition of Narcissism: the personality trait of egotism, vanity, conceit, or simple selfishness. Applied to a social group, it is sometimes used to denote elitism or an indifference to the plight of others.
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**Reference - Hotchkiss' seven deadly sins of narcissism

1. Shamelessness - Shame is the feeling that lurks beneath all unhealthy narcissism, and the inability to process shame in healthy ways.
2. Magical thinking - Narcissists see themselves as perfect using distortion and illusion known as magical thinking. They also use projection to dump shame onto others.
3. Arrogance - A narcissist who is feeling deflated may re-inflate by diminishing, debasing, or degrading somebody else.
4. Envy - A narcissist may secure a sense of superiority in the face of another person's ability by using contempt to minimize the other person.
5. Entitlement - Narcissists hold unreasonable expectations of particularly favorable treatment and automatic compliance because they consider themselves special. Any failure to comply will be considered an attack on their superiority and the perpetrator is considered to be an "awkward" or "difficult" person. Defiance of their will is a narcissistic injury that can trigger narcissistic rage.
6. Exploitation - can take many forms but always involves the exploitation of others without regard for their feelings or interests. Often the other is in a subservient position where resistance would be difficult or even impossible. Sometimes the subservience is not so much real as assumed.
7. Bad Boundaries - narcissists do not recognize that they have boundaries and that others are separate and are not extensions of themselves. Others either exist to meet their needs or may as well not exist at all. Those who provide narcissistic supply to the narcissist will be treated as if they are part of the narcissist and be expected to live up to those expectations. In the mind of a narcissist, there is no boundary between self and other.

I always wanted a happy ending...
Now I've learned, the hard way,
that some poems don't rhyme,
and some stories don't have a clear beginning,
middle and end.
Life is about not knowing, having to change,
taking the moment and making the best of it,
without knowing what's going to happen next.
Delicious ambiguity

~ Gilda Radner

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September...
tries its best to have us forget summer

~ Bern Williams

When they discover the center of the universe,
a lot of people will be disappointed...
to discover they are not it

~ Bernard Bailey

Our scientific power
has outrun our spiritual power.
We have guided missiles
and misguided men

~ Martin Luther King Jr.

Throw your heart over the fence
and the rest will follow



~ Norman Vincent Peale

Gratitude...
is not only the greatest of virtues,
but the parent of all others

~ Cicero

Truth is tough.
It will not break,
like a bubble,
at a touch;
nay,
you may kick it about all day like a football,
and it will be round and full at evening

~ Oliver Wendell Holmes

Ever tried?
Ever failed?
No Matter...

Try again,
Fail again,
Fail better

~ Samuel Beckett

There's only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that's your own self

~ Aldous Huxley

Whatever you think, be sure it is what you think;
whatever you want, be sure that is what you want;
whatever you feel, be sure that is what you feel.

~ T. S. Eliot

Do what you love, and do it often.
If you don’t like something, change it.
If you don’t like your job, quit.
If you don't have enough time, stop watching TV.
If you are looking for the love of your life, stop; they will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love.
Stop over-analyzing; life is simple.
All emotions are beautiful.
When you eat, appreciate every last bite.
Travel often; getting lost will help you find yourself.
Some opportunities only come once: seize them.
Open your mind, arms, and heart to new things and people.
We are united in our differences.
Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring passion with them.
Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them, so go out and start creating.
Life is short.
Live your dream, and wear your passion.

~ Holstee Manifesto (eco-friendly clothing company)

A Wise Teacher from the Ocean is Kelp…
Showing us how to Move through Life.
Kelp easily Moves with the Rise and Fall of the Tides.
When the Waves come, Big and Small,
it is pushed upon the rocks,
Simply responding by…

Dancing… with Fluidity and Grace.
Accepting… each Moment as it Occurs
No Hesitation… always finding the Rhythm of Life

…as should we…


~kenji

This moment maybe I am the teacher
The next moment I am your student
Again, the teacher
Again, the student
And so it goes...

With gratitude


~kenji

Each person comes into this world with a specific destiny...
you have something to fulfill,
some message to be delivered,
some work to be completed.

You are not here accidentally, you are here meaningfully.
There is purpose behind you.
The whole intends to do something through you.

~Osho

Love is or it ain't. Thin love ain't love at all

~ Toni Morrison

What is the point of Progress if the food is tasteless, the housing absurd, the clothing uncomfortable, the religion just talk, the air poisoned by Cadillacs, the work boring, the sex uptight and mechanical, the earth clobbered with concrete, and the water so chemicalized that even the fish are abandoning existence?


~ Alan Watts

I am more and more convinced that our happiness or unhappiness depends more on the way we meet the events of life than on the nature of those events themselves

~ Alexander Humboldt

Men are not prisoners of fate, but only prisoners of their own minds

~ Franklin D. Roosevelt

To play it safe is not to play

~ Robert Altman

If we had no winter, the spring would not be so pleasant: if we did not sometimes taste of adversity, prosperity would not be so welcome

~ Anne Bradstreet

I began to have an idea of my life, not as the slow shaping of achievement to fit my preconceived purposes, but as the gradual discovery and growth of a purpose which I did not know

~ Joanna Field

It's so easy to be wicked without knowing it, isn't it

~ L. M. Montgomery

To be one's self, and unafraid whether right or wrong, is more admirable than the easy cowardice of surrender to conformity

~ Irving Wallace

Intimacy is being seen and known as the person you truly are

~ Amy Bloom

Dreams are...


...illustrations from the book your soul is writing about you

~ Marsha Norman

Love is the big booming beat which covers up the noise of hate
~ Margaret Cho

It doesn't matter if you win or lose in the big, scary jungle of the real world. Winners and losers... Enemies and allies... We don't live in a comic book! This is the real deal
~Takayuki Ikkaku, Arisa Hosaka and Toshihiro Kawabata

“If we don’t know enough to start fashioning legislative solutions, then I don’t think we know enough to start drilling”
~Energy and Commerce Chairman Henry Waxman (D-Calif.) ...in response to the stalling of legislation to protect the environment by curbing drilling:


“I question the need for the haste ... when we don’t have all the facts in front of us”
- Michael Burgess (R-Texas)

“I am all for improving the safety of offshore drilling, but we should wait for the investigations to be concluded before we prematurely pass legislation..."
- Fred Upton (R-Mich.)

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Yeah, good old George had a talent for seeing thru the BS ;-)
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FDA defeated in federal court over censorship of truthful health claims

Family Tradition...

My mom grew up in Germany and my dad imported her ;-)

The one meal that was an all time family favorite in my home was:

Pork Roast
Spaetzle Noodles w/ Gravy
& German Potato Salad

It doesn't matter if you know what those foods are, just let me say they are delicious

Anyway, Deb - my roommate discovered that this was an all time favorite of mine (& the family as a whole). So for my 'birthday dinner' she stepped up to the task of trying to replicate 'moms' cooking. I am counting my blessings
and...
Mom would be proud, plus,
I was way stuffed after wolfing down far too much of these great grinds

To my siblings:
nah, nah ,nah , nah, nah!
um..., er..., I mean - I'm sorry you missed out, wish you were here :-)

with gratitude

I like You

... when you are the saint
... when you are the sinner
... or whatever other version
of you that shows up along the way.

Actually,
I Really like the raw,
unprocessed person
that grows in your own natural way....

Becoming



The woo woo & and its people will disappoint you,
Narcissism & the folk who wear it will disappoint you,
Whatever flavor of life or person you meet will disappoint you in some way
As it is human nature.

Become like a dancer...
with your life.
Along the way you will meet Fred Astaires
who'll make magic with you
And you will meet Frankensteins who'll crush you...
for a time

It is hard,
It is beautiful,
It is wondrous to see
It is what it is.

These are the experiences that make you...
You

So...

I like You

~kenji

I Endure in order to Enlighten
Transcending Life
I seal the Matrix of Universal Fire
With the Cosmic tone of Presence
I am guided by the power of Flowering
I am a galactic activation portal - enter me.

You have to live spherically...
in many directions.
To accept yourself
for what you are
without inhibitions,
to be open
~ Federico Fellini

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The winds of change are stirring the air about me,
...and things are moving - a dance of a different energy
I believe the Universe is conspiring (in a good way)
It reminds me of the moods of Esalen
My curiosity is up as to what will unfold

Nanotechnology in your Food (click here)

As best you can...
Eat organic
Eat local foods
Support local farmers

Boycott the 'Big Boys' if this nonsense keeps up

Remember the last great food idea...
hydrogenated and partially hydrogenated oils

their consumption has been linked to the development of diabetes, cancer and cardiovascular disease.

These things are based on MONEY & PROFIT...

... not on concern for our HEALTH

If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together…

there is something you must always remember.

You are braver than you believe,

stronger than you seem,

and smarter than you think.

But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart…

I’ll always be with you

~Winnie the Pooh

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…My Kind of love…

~kenji

Chakra Seven – Sahasrara :

Thought, Universal identity, oriented to self-knowledge.This is the crown chakra that relates to consciousness as pure awareness. It is our connection to the greater world beyond, to a timeless, spaceless place of all-knowing. When developed, this chakra brings us knowledge, wisdom, understanding, spiritual connection, and bliss.

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Chakra Six – Ajna :

Light, Archetypal identity, oriented to self-reflection. This chakra is known as the brow chakra or third eye center. It is related to the act of seeing, both physically and intuitively. As such it opens our psychic faculties and our understanding of archetypal levels. When healthy it allows us to see clearly, in effect, letting us “see the big picture.”

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Chakra Five: Vissuddha:

Sound, Creative identity, oriented to self-expression. This is the chakra located in the throat and is thus related to communication and creativity. Here we experience the world symbolically through vibration, such as the vibration of sound representing language.

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Chakra Four – Anahata:

Air, Social identity, oriented to self-acceptance. This chakra is called the heart chakra and is the middle chakra in a system of seven. It is related to love and is the integrator of opposites in the psyche: mind and body, masculine and feminine, persona and shadow, ego and unity. A healthy fourth chakra allows us to love deeply, feel compassion, have a deep sense of peace and centeredness.

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Chakra Three: – Manipura :

Fire, Ego identity, oriented to self-definition. This chakra is known as the power chakra, located in the solar plexus. It rules our personal power, will, and autonomy, as well as our metabolism. When healthy, this chakra brings us energy, effectiveness, spontaneity, and non-dominating power.

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Chakra Two – Svadhisthana:

Water, Emotional identity, oriented to self-gratification. The second chakra, located in the abdomen, lower back, and sexual organs, is related to the element water, and to emotions and sexuality. It connects us to others through feeling, desire, sensation, and movement. Ideally this chakra brings us fluidity and grace, depth of feeling, sexual fulfillment, and the ability to accept change.
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Chakra One – Muladhara:

Earth, Physical identity, oriented to self-preservation. Located at the base of the spine, this chakra forms our foundation. It represents the element earth, and is therefore related to our survival instincts, and to our sense of grounding and connection to our bodies and the physical plane. Ideally this chakra brings us health, prosperity, security, and dynamic presence.

It was around this time last year that I left the dolphins of Big Island for Japan, and…, ultimately – Bali. I’m really missing it. Travel is a tiring affair but the jewels found in the process make it worth it

My 2 weeks in Japan were very busy. The first 2 pit stops were in Tokyo and Kyoto on my way to Matsuyama (not so very far from Hiroshima). My stay in Matsuyama was all about doing sessions, a combination of bodywork and teaching (life coach). I completed 18 sessions in 5 days (with another 4 in the following week). After Matsuyama, it was on to Osaka where I stayed with a sweet woman who taught traditional Japanese weaving (on a loom). It was another new way to be in the moment. I really enjoyed it but it was off to the airport and on to Bali.

Wow, Bali…. I couldn’t stop smiling for a week. It was natural… there something about the energy of the place and it’s Magical Rice Fields. I was there to take a dance facilitation workshop and a month long workshop to add to my Esalen Massage certification training so that I could get their piece of paper saying that I did it, then I could hang on the wall with my others. most of my time was spent near Ubud at Ananda Cottages which as the universe would have it, got me an awesome room.

Anyway… Bali & Japan are in my blood now and I hope to return sometime this year. If not, then I hope to bring them to me in Hawaii. During this year, as I build an energetic anchor (home base) here in Kauai, I hope to create a healing space for myself and any who would venture here

Blessings
~kenji

Seems like as I continue to refine my personal definition of spirituality, I see a lot of the patriarchal leanings still exist in organized religions. Its like… the penis is supposed to be the ‘rod of wisdom’.
I’ve got one… and trust me, it isn’t.
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Be the religion:

Dude-ist… (aka Buddhist)
Him-Du… (aka Hindu)
Christ-Him… (aka Christian)
other Man-stream Religions (mainstream)

Don’t get me wrong, I have more in common with the first two as they’re a closer match to my own philosophy but in the ‘organized part’ – they still have heavy leanings toward the patriarchal (masculine). This mystifies me so many agree that it takes both Yin & Yang (feminine & masculine) to achieve any semblance of balance.

I’d love to see an opening of arms toward the re-emerging goddess (feminine) energy so that it comes into our conscious as a gradual integration rater than having to reach the strength of a tsunami to create change. Either way will effect the needed change but the turbulence of a such wave can be rough on those who are unprepared.

So awakening goddesses, dance a new dance with the masculine, one of power coupled with grace, seduction with wisdom and knowledge with nurturing giving birth to a new world

~kenji